2 Weeks later...

Well, I've been home for about 2 weeks now and...i haven't really don that much! Haha, I've been watching a lot of TV, playing Golf, reading alot...basically doing what i love to do in the summer...relax! I did start work at Anthropologie and made a trip down to Starkvegas to visit my friends :)

Right now I am busy plotting my next trip to London. I've emailed the AIA UK chapter to enquire about possible interning for an American Architect in London. In case you didn't know, once I graduate with my Bachelors degree in Architecture, I then have to complete 3 years of IDP (Intern development Program) before I can begin to take the 8 exams required to become an Architect. The IDP program has pretty strict requirements, one of them being that it must be done under an American Architect. The only way then to do an internship abroad is to find an American Architect working there. There are plenty of big name Architects that have offices abroad, and that is one option. However, I'm not really sure if I'm interested in working for a Big Name architect at a huge firm. I'm thinking more of a mid sized firm that just happens to be in...oh, say, London?

I'm having this constant inner battle...well, maybe not battle, but struggle to figure out where I want to be. After I return from Washington, I will try to get an externship (week long firm shadowing during spring break) which could possibly lead to a summer internship or year of co-oping, which could then in turn lead to a 3 year internship after graduation. Now, I know that the probability of finding the right firm on the first try is not likely, but It would make things simpler if I could pick the right city on the first try. I know that if I spend a summer interning in New York, that I would love it, but would that mean missing out on being in London? And I am going to LA in 2 weeks to check out the "vibe" there...my mom is trying to convince me that I will hate it (well, hello! i've been there before and I didn't hate it!) But, then again, she may have a point. But how can I resist the sunshine!? haha.

I don't know, As i type all of this it sounds a bit ridiculous...like maybe I should take the opportunities that come and trust that that will be right. I have my entire life to live in as many cities as I want. For some reason though...I feel rushed...like I need to figure it all out right now. Who knows....All I know is that I will feel a little better about my future if I actively pursue the things that I want to do. And if that means spending summer 2012 in London, I think I might just do anything to get there. Thats what living your dream is about, right? Doing everything you can to get there...not just living life passively... which is what it feels like I'm doing sometimes. Things seem easy, everything falls into place. But when they do fall into place, it might not necessarily be the place where I really want to be. It might just be the place that was easiest to get to. I don't want to look back on life and say, well I never really did anything to get there, It just sort of happened, and yeah, it was okay but What If? What If i lived in London, or LA, or New York, or Nashville, or anywhere? And now I'm back to my original dilemma of picking the place where I want to be...and being back in this place puts makes me think yet again, that I need to remember to calm it down a bit. I DO know that I do not need to worry about these things because there is a far greater power than myself guiding my life. And I will be where he leads me, *as long as I listen*. So maybe thats what I am struggling to do, listen very carefully and not leave any options out.


After all of this life thought...here is a bit of comedic relief that I thought was really funny. You might not...it deals with two things that people criticize me and alot of girls for, but hey, I am what I am ;)
From Nick Jonas' live chat the other day...
Question via twitter for Nick - team edward or team jacob?
Nick - "I don't really choose teams. Only when it comes to Baseball. Now if one of them joined the Yankees....well, that would most likely be, ha, never mind. next question."
bahaha!! I'm sure he was thinking Taylor Lautner...the way those boys have to edit what they say is hilarious to me. I only wish i could here everything they really want to say and not just what is publicly allowed.
Another quote from the chat...
Question- Was you scared when you were stuck in the Elevator
Nick "hahah, waaasss you scared?" (in a semi getto voice...HILARIOUS!)
check out this link and go to 00:24....haha.